Locked In


people in bokeh, street of London

My smile wasn’t an invitation.

Another face in the crowd

wanting to blend in –

untilΒ you threw me to the ground.

Your laugh still bouncing off my skull.Β 

I wanna run and hide

but there’s nowhere left to go.

I’m locked in this nightmare with you.

My secret locked in shame.

I don’t look any different

except when I look in the mirror.

And there’s no one to tell.

people in bokeh, street of London

One day like the rest except for

me where everything’s changed.

I should’ve fought harder.

My body discarded like trash.

I wanna scream in pain.

No one to hear me in here

except for my demons – and her.

So I scream in silence.

I hate myself and you even more.

You for being a monster;

me for being too weak.

My smile back in place.

people in bokeh, street of London

Β©Brenda Baker 2016

Part 12 of Hushed Voices

46 comments on “Locked In”

    1. Thank you so much. πŸ™‚ I was a little nervous about this one, but I’ve been wanting to write it for a while. Far too many women suffer in shame and silence after being raped. They are the victims, and deserve justice for such a physically and emotionally shattering act of violence. An act that goes unreported and unpunished in far too many cases.

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